Every had one of those moments where you are reminded of the choices in your past that you wish you could “do over?” I do. I sometimes look back at my life and wish I had another chance to do things the “right way” (whatever that means!) Things like,
My SAT’s
My relationships with my parents, my sister, friends, ex-friends…
My freshman year of college
My first 5 years of ministry
The day I thought I needed a free t-shirt for a signing up for my first credit card
The day I decided to use that credit card
There are always times in my life that I wished I had done things differently. Maybe it’s because in this race called life (or marathon or whatever…) it feels like I’ve often been late on the start or I’m getting penalized for jumping the gun. Maybe it’s because when I look back, I feel that I was always too immature for the responsibilities handed to me.
Then today I realized something. I realized that a lot of those times when I look back on the decisions in my life and just wince, it is because I am focused too much on comparing myself to others. I was comparing myself to others who were smarter than me, more mature than me, better looking than me, stronger than me, or more talented than me. And in the stage of life I am in, it is hard not to look around at my peers and their successes and not feel like I have fallen short.
And so what happened when I realized this? I believe God told me two things:
1 Timothy 6:6
But godliness with contentment is great gain.
Philippians 1:6
And I am sure of this, that he who began a good work in you will bring it to completion at the day of Jesus Christ.
I think I’m feeling better.